a mere puppet that moves as told,
a mere ghost of your past being,
crumbling inside silently, unnoticed
just let yourself wither away...

you kept on finding but you can't find what you seek.
you moved but are you in the right direction?
you achieved but is it what you wanted?
do you have a reason? do you have an answer?

you are no longer who you are.
you are just merely the ghost of the being you were.

finally...

some internet. decent speed too! :)

this week grandslam
next week, BIT training
2 weeks later, BIT & thailand
graduation in may...

things are changing real quick, time flew so fast.

these remaining weeks will be really crucial to me. i really hope i can adept to it. passing out as sergeant soon. then i got to adapt to new neighbourhood as i'm moving to my aunt's place temporarily really soon. then my first time going to a country further than malaysia (at last! XD). truly believe that this year is a year of many new beginnings.

mind of steel

recently in camp a platoon mate of mine shared with me a phrase 'mind of steel' which somehow caught my attention. i really gave it some thought and referred to something almost similar to it. well, he is someone we all know, the man of steel, Superman.

so you may ask what is the difference between these two unique phrases. well, lets first touch on superman.

as we all know, superman is the indestructible hero. having the abilities like flight, super strength, super speed, stopping bullets, he's just so powerful. many a times, he is always portrayed fighting extremely tough battles against enemies and prevailed. battles where normal people will just give up and throw in the towel. he sure is amazing indeed.

but have you wondered, what happens if superman did not set his mind on doing what he can do or possessing a low self-esteem?

this is where i'll touch upon a mind of steel. its not like superman where it can stop bullets, fly at super speed. (imagine a brain flying around, ain't it disgusting?). its about having a mind where you are determined, focused, being confident and knowing who you are. it is also when people are throwing negative remarks at you, saying you are not up to it or you will not succeed, you will be confident knowing as long as you set your mind to accomplish what you want, you will succeed in doing it. having such a mindset will enable a person to really step up to challenges and face it head on even knowing it is tough. just imagine this, if superman is not confident in who he is, i honestly don't think he can do things like flying and fight against heavily armed robbers. he may just think 'oh, i know i can fly but i'm afraid i may fall halfway while flying' or even 'oh man, they have so many weapons, i don't think i will be able to dodge them all...' just like the bible says 'as a man thinks, so is he'.

so friends, have a mind of steel and be ready to take on challenges as they come! you need not to be superman but you can do something as great as what he can do. :)